Sorry I haven't been the best blogger lately. I really have tried to post something... but lately, the only things on my mind are negative. I blame the hormones.
As excited as I am about Ping-pong* getting here, it is so hard to show my excitement when I hid my pregnancy for so long. Like I told you before, I didn't tell anyone until around Easter, and before that I made a point of making my stomach as unnoticeable as possible. Now that I'm wearing tight fitting shirts and talking about baby all the time, I feel like it's all people can talk about. It really isn't a negative thing, I'm just really not used to talking about it, so I'm taking it more negatively than positively.
For instance... Like I said in my last post, I recently did a huge facebook friend deletion, and shortly after that I posted the link to my blog that announced that I was pregnant on facebook. So almost immediately I was getting at least 3 facebook friend requests a day. I blamed it on the fact that I had just posted a blog about my pregnancy and looked at those friends requests as a negative thing... surely all these people didn't want to be my friend on facebook just because... they wanted to be my friend because suddenly there is some juicy gossip about me. But at the same time, I was getting messages constantly from people saying that they were more than willing to help me in any way I might need, and just pouring out words of encouragement.
I really am trying to see the good in people, but after hiding for so long, it was second nature to expect the worst. I guess I just need to take a second look at everything and make sure I'm not making something positive negative. I need to get a hold on these stupid hormones, and be happy no matter what!
*Ping-pong is my nickname for this little guy. I'm not going to decide on a name until he's here, so until then... Ping-pong it is!