I've had lots of time alone lately to just think.
About everything. Relationships, school, the future, the past.
And I got to thinking about one thing in particular.
Why relationships end.
I can look at myself a year ago, and see myself cherishing relationships that, today, I could honestly care less about. Well, actually, maybe that's not true, otherwise I probably wouldn't have been thinking about it so deeply, and taken the time to write about it. I look back and look at the deep bonds I had with some great people. And I don't know if it's because I changed, or because they changed, or because there was distance that we weren't used to; but something happened to make our relationship almost non-existent. I'm not talking about one person in particular, there have been many instances that this has happened, maybe for the better, who knows.
But it really sucks to think that you can invest so much time into a relationship, only to have it not matter a year later. Is that how relationships are supposed to work? I don't think so. And I really wish I could go back in time and make everything different so that my relationships with those people wouldn't have changed. Maybe I need to try to rekindle them? Or is it even my fault that those relationships ended? Who knows.
I guess we'll see what happens. Only time will tell!