I've had lots of time alone lately to just think.
About everything. Relationships, school, the future, the past.
And I got to thinking about one thing in particular.
Why relationships end.
I can look at myself a year ago, and see myself cherishing relationships that, today, I could honestly care less about. Well, actually, maybe that's not true, otherwise I probably wouldn't have been thinking about it so deeply, and taken the time to write about it. I look back and look at the deep bonds I had with some great people. And I don't know if it's because I changed, or because they changed, or because there was distance that we weren't used to; but something happened to make our relationship almost non-existent. I'm not talking about one person in particular, there have been many instances that this has happened, maybe for the better, who knows.
But it really sucks to think that you can invest so much time into a relationship, only to have it not matter a year later. Is that how relationships are supposed to work? I don't think so. And I really wish I could go back in time and make everything different so that my relationships with those people wouldn't have changed. Maybe I need to try to rekindle them? Or is it even my fault that those relationships ended? Who knows.
I guess we'll see what happens. Only time will tell!
Some things just change. You learn from people and most of the time they made a difference in your life.
ReplyDeleteI know, I am a mom and an adult so kids usually dismiss what we kind of people have to say. However, as I have said before it seems like just yesterday that I was sitting right in your spot. Here is what I found. After high school you go off and do your stuff. Go to college. Maybe work, get married, have a family. You may not even invite those high school friends to the wedding (but you should) because you haven't seen them in years maybe. But then something happens. You reconnect. I talk to those friends on a regular basis now and maybe we hadn't talked in years. Those friends are the kind of friends that you never EVER lose. You talk after years and it is as if nothing changed. I know I went to see my friend Shell Perington after years and we actually stayed at her house. She said, Whew, I thought you would have changed but you are exactly the same. So for the most part that is what happens. But, I think it is a good idea to plan some parties from time to time. Like this summer you should have had a huge party or two in our pool with all those people you miss!!!
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